22nd March 2013

Why can't these feelings leave me alone? Why can't these feelings go away? Am I not trying hard enough? Or is it meant to be this way? People say time heals all wounds, but it's been so long but nothing's really changing. Yes there's improvement, but those improvements aren't enough. This needs to stop. I need to stop feeling this way. I need change. I need to snap out of this. I'm feeling so damn sick from feeling this way all the time. But it just keeps coming back. Sometimes it hits like how the waves hits the shore on a low tide, sometimes it hits like a fucking tsunami. It never stops coming back. Never. And I ask myself why all the time. It's driving me crazy. Someone save me.